i cant help but know and realize there is an easy way out.
i shouldn't torture myself by looking online and seeing
the thousands of jobs that are available back in new york,
that i could easily get with no worries about
legal papers and legit documentation
of who i am and where i belong.
i like my life here and i want to keep it that way
but 'shouldn't you be a little more realistic?' says my mother.
its just the december blues.
the end of a year and the start of a new one.