let us disappear and speak wild songs by lalalalauren

The Junkman's Obbligato by Lawrence Frelinghetti:
Let’s go

Come on
Let’s go
Empty our pockets
And disappear.
Missing all our appointments
And turning up unshaven
Years later
Old cigarette papers
stuck to our pants
leaves in our hair.
Let us not
worry about the payments
anymore.
Let them come
and take it away
whatever it was
we were paying for.
And us with it.
Let us arise and go now
to where dogs do it
Over the Hill
where they keep the earthquakes
behind the city dumps
lost among gasmains and garbage.
Let us see the City Dumps
for what they are.
My country tears of thee.
Let us disappear
in automobile graveyards
and reappear years later
picking rags and newspapers
drying our drawers
on garbage fires
patches on our ass.
Do not bother
to say goodbye
to anyone.
Your missus will not miss us.
Let’s go
smelling of sterno
where the benches are filled
with discarded Bowling Green statues
in the interior dark night
of the flower bowery
our eyes watery
with the contemplation
of empty bottles of muscatel.
Let us recite from broken bibles
on streetcorners
Follow dogs on docks
Speak wild songs
Throw stones
Say anything
Blink at the sun and scratch
and stumble into silence
Diddle in doorways
Know whores thirdhand
after everyone else is finished
Stagger befuddled into East River sunsets
Sleep in phone booths
Puke in pawnshops
wailing for a winter overcoat.
Let us arise and go now
under the city
where ashcans roll
and reappear in putrid clothes
as the uncrowned underground kings
of subway men’s rooms.
Let us feed the pigeons
at the City Hall
urging them to do their duty
in the Mayor’s office.
Hurry up please it’s time.
The end is coming.
Flash floods
Disasters in the sun
Dogs unleashed
Sister in the street
her brassiere backwards.
Let us arise and go now
into the interior dark night
of the soul’s still bowery
and find ourselves anew
where subways stall and wait
under the River.
Cross over
into full puzzlement.
South Ferry will not run forever.
They are cutting out the Bay ferries
but it is still not too late
to get lost in Oakland.
Washington has not yet toppled
from his horse.
There is still time to goose him
and go
leaving our income tax form behind
and our waterproof wristwatch with it
staggering blind after alleycats
under Brooklyn’s Bridge
blown statues in baggy pants
our tincan cries and garbage voices
trailing.
Junk for sale!
Let’s cut it out let’s go
into the real interior of the country
where hockshops reign
mere unblind anarchy upon us.
The end is here
but golf goes on at Burning Tree.
It’s raining it’s pouring
The Ole Man is snoring.
Another flood is coming
though not the kind you think.
There is still time to sink
and think.
I wish to descend in society.
I wish to make like free.
Swing low sweet chariot.
Let us not wait for the cadillacs
to carry us triumphant
into the interior
waving at the natives
like roman senators in the provinces
wearing poet’s laurels
on lighted brows.
Let us not wait for the write-up
on page one
of the New York Times Book review
images of insane success
smiling from the photo.
By the time they print your picture
in Life Magazine
you will have become a negative anyway
a print with a glossy finish.
They will have come and gotten you
to be famous
and you still will not be free.
Goodbye I’m going.
I’m selling everything
and giving away the rest
to the Good Will Industries.
It will be dark out there
with the Salvation Army Band.
And the mind its own illumination.
Goodbye I’m walking out on the whole scene.
Close down the joint.
The system is all loused up.
Rome was never like this.
I’m tired of waiting for Godot.
I am going where turtles win
I am going
where conmen puke and die
Down the sad esplanades
of the official world.
Junk for sale!
My country tears of thee.
Let us go then you and I
leaving our neckties behind on lampposts
Take up the full beard
of walking anarchy
looking like Walt Whitman
a homemade bomb in the pocket.
I wish to descend in the social scale.
High society is low society.
I am a social climber
climbing downward
And the descent is difficult.
The Upper Middle Class Ideal
is for the birds
but the birds have no use for it
having their own kind of pecking order
based upon birdsong.
Pigeons on the grass alas.
Let us arise and go now
to the Isle of Manisfree.
Let loose the hogs of peace.
Hurry up please it’s time.
Let us arise and go now
into the interior
of Foster’s Cafeteria.
So long Emily Post.
So long
Lowell Thomas.
Goodbye Broadway.
Goodbye Herald Square.
Turn it off.
Confound the system.
Cancel our leases.
Lose the War
without killing anybody.
Let horses scream
and ladies run
to flushless powderrooms.
The end has just begun.
I want to announce it.
Run don’t walk
to the nearest exit.
The real earthquake is coming.
I can feel the building shake.
I am the refined type.
I cannot stand it.
I am going
where asses lie down
with customs collectors who call themselves
literary critics.
My tool is dusty.
My body is hung up too long
in strange suspenders.
Get me a bright bandana
for a jockstrap.
Turn loose and we’ll be off
where sports cars collapse
and the world begins again.
Hurry up please it’s time.
It’s time and a half
and there’s the rub.
The thinkpad makes homeboys of us all.
Let us cut out
into stray eternity.
Somewhere the fields are full of larks.
Somewhere the land is swinging.
My country ‘tis of thee
I’m singing.
Let us arise and go now
to the Isle of Manisfree
and live the true blue simple life
of wisdom and wonderment
where all things grow
straight up
aslant and singing
in the yellow sun
poppies out of cowpods
thinking angels out of turds.
I must arise and go now
to the Isle of Manisfree
way up behind the broken words
and woods of Arcady.

berlin by lalalalauren

my brother was in paris and we went to berlin together with my friend andrew and here are the amazing pictures he took documenting the whole week. love all the photos... especially the last ones that are in paris where i am wearing my boyfriend's mother's vintage leopard coat that i am just beyond obsessed with. beyond obsessed. need it. gahh. now. why wont they enlarge with a click?


this picture of the three of us is one of my favorite favorites.



oooh, and this one.
photo credit: david auerbach


i can read this 1000 times and still love it...

We smile at each other

and I lean back against the wicker couch.

How does it feel to be dead? I say.

You touch my knees with your blue fingers.

And when you open your mouth,

a ball of yellow light falls to the floor

and burns a hole through it.

Don't tell me, I say. I don't want to hear.

Did you ever, you start,

wear a certain kind of dress

and just by accident,

so inconsequential you barely notice it,

your fingers graze that dress

and you hear the sound of a knife cutting paper,

you see it too

and you realize how that image

is simply the extension of another image,

that your own life

is a chain of words

that one day will snap.

Words, you say, young girls in a circle, holding hands,

and beginning to rise heavenward

in their confirmation dresses,

like white helium balloons,

the wreathes of flowers on their heads spinning,

and above all that,

that's where I'm floating,

and that's what it's like

only ten times clearer,

ten times more horrible.

Could anyone alive survive it?

-Ai

litter in san francisco by lalalalauren

i just discovered some seriously bad ass shit straight out of san francisco. two girls, mackenzie and rachael have created this jewelry line called Litter. and this is what i call some innovative bling. I saw some of their work on FashionToast a couple months ago, but never knew who designed the genius piece that Rumi was rocking in the form of shoe jewelry. So far, they still make everything themselves and by hand but they are getting so much great press that they are going to have a workload ahead of them, there is already at least a month's wait on some pieces. They do everything from  silver chain suspenders (or did anyways, sold out.) to sexy gunmetal shoe harnesses, stunning detail-orientated headbands and check out the sterling silver finger claws here

i basically just read their blog from start to finish and i fell almost as much in love with these girls and their awesome style as i did with their jewelry. i cannot be sure because there was no caption, but these pictures were on their blog about some crazy night  in san francisco where they decided to take their clothes of in the streets and get chained up. their documentation of a fun night out on the town is like, editorial material... and i love it. check out the jewelry after the jump. 



+++++++++


 i am not really sure what to write as a comment to the four pieces of art down below. (no pun intended)



ha!! dont lie, you know its discustingly amazing.

source: www.littermb.com 

this is what i'm waiting for by lalalalauren

there are numerous stores out there that do the copy cat chic styles of the runway on an affordable budget that us normal people can afford, but out of all those store... h&m, forever21, new look, mango, etc... i think most poeple are in agreement when i say that topshop is well, the top. the cream of the crop. the best thing since sliced bread. cool as a cucumber. a feast for the eyes. ok. ill stop. anyways my point actually has nothing to do with topshop and its amazingness, the point i want to make has to do with h&m. so, the matthew williamson collection was realised in france may 14th. meaning that store i saw on rue de rivoli two weeks ago, fully stocked with the williamson collection was.... a fluke?  i was excited that i would have another chance. buuut, talk about a letdown.  the collection was wayyy to ibiza neon 80's themed for me. ouch, harsh. anyways. i happen to be doing some research online, and found THIS fall 2009 collection making its way to the h&m empire.... and wowzas, studs! leathah! shoulders! layers! a color palette i can actually wear! i cannot wait for this. its almost, ahemm, topshop-esque?
another fall 2009 collection im slightly obsessing over is wildfox couture. i am not necessarily one for graphic tees unless they are 20 years old and feature the rolling stones, or something understated and supahh artsy (ha!)... but this fall lookbook made me want to have a sleepover with friends, dress up and drink champagne and have these photos to rememer it all.  i like vampires. i like red lipstick. i like fun. i like everything about this lookbook and im just going to go for it and say that it might be my favorite lookbook shoots i've ever come across. 
refinery29.com, wildfoxcouture.com

wednesday by lalalalauren

i'm going to berlin, germany for 3 days at the beginning on june. quick, cheap trip with my brother while he is in paris. excited! i think the two places that i MUST go to this summer is spain and london. i'm kinda skipping out on italy for now. and greece is a must with the boy if that is at all possible before he goes back to the states given both of our money situations.

i just bought about 5 new pairs of tights. excited because they were cheap and can so easily modify and add a lot to a simple outfit.
  1. amazingly adorable little black heart panyhose, they are here.
  2. opaque tights with one black leg and one cream leg, thank you american apparel.
  3. i dont know how these will look on, but im willing to give the somewhat chanel-like knockoffs a chance.
  4. ok, here is where i might have been crazy. the word gothic is written in the description but i went with them anyway! i saw a little bit of the infamous rodarte tights in them somewhere... and i dont own a pair of fishnets so maybe this will be the closest i ever come to owning a pair.
  5. simple lace leggings via urban outfitters again.
my first attempt at shreading a tshirt didnt come out so well. so many holes, and it was quite uneven and well, just not as unbelievable awesome as the one Cocorosa has. not as easy as it looks in the tutorial, definatly need to give it another try.

here's some pretty pictures to stare at:



fate&chance by lalalalauren

holy moly the weather this week has been sooo dreadful. my boyfriend leaves to LA for 10 days on friday and ughh i am so jel. i could really go for a dose of america... maybe just a week, or a weekend! i would be able to watch lost at its orgininal time and be as wonderfully confused as the rest of all of america at the very same time!
speaking of lost, i was thinking that after paris i would maybe try living somewhere non-metropolitan and surrounded with beaches. basically just learn to surf and get that olive skintone that i used to have when i was growing up in arizona. at the same time, i completely thrive after the big city lifestyle... whether it was the fast walkin, fast talkin, dirty grimey streets of brooklyn and new york city... or the romantic haussmann buildings, the stinking homeless men, the cigarette covered streets and grey skies of paris... after living in new york city and paris, a girl has got to wonder, what's next?
of course getting my degree needs to happen sooner rather than later... and for that im thinking the easiest thing would be to go back to the states... to either los angeles or back to brooklyn. although, over the past couple years i have come to the conclusion that cold winters are not for me. winter sucks the life and soul out of a person who grew up in the sun, and also, i absouletly deteste wearing coats and all those horrible bulky winter layers. this is why la seems like a logical new destination for me to save up some money and finish school... yet i am still not sold on it. there are so many places to go and things to see, how can i decide! i have somewhat been putting off going to london, because i am postitive i will looove it, and it seems like a medium between the states and europe (enter: the language barrier).
i guess at this point the only thing i can do is travel as much and as cheaply as possibly around europe while im here, seeking new opportunities and new adventures and finding potential cities to make a new home in. i guess if i just live each day by day that things will work themselves out and i will find the destination i am searching for...

les inspirations by lalalalauren

shit man, there are so many beautiful editorials out there.
beautiful models, beautiful clothes, beautiful photographs... sighhh
so i finally joined chictopia.com. maybe someone might read my blog now?
maybe not.
hmph!!

love.
flowers and bathtubs... these are a few of my favorite things...
this outfit might be one of my all time favorite looks.
currently seeking: sequin blazer. preferably matte gold.
qui n'aime pas la vintage kate moss? ah, la innocence...
currently searching super big pyramid studs comme ca.

one of my favorite picsk from the cfda gala... go figure

one of my go-to looks, glasses and rouge a levres





DIY to do list by lalalalauren

i'm gunna go to the fabric store and buy some stuff and try making some shit.
  1. ive watched the tutorial, ive seen the awesome outcome. i will attempt to shread a tshirt this week.
  2. bought that shrunken jean jacket and its cute, but it wont compare with after i stud the shit out of that thing with the biggest brass pyramid studs i can get my hands on.
  3. lots of jersey material, maybe in an army/olive green?... lots of strips made into braids for chunky necklace wonderfullness. maybeee something like this?
  4. getting some rad fringe and making some boring shirt pretty again.
  5. give up my virginity to tie-dying. ive never dyi-ed and im gunna do it like ill never do it again. rawwwrrr.
got my holga all loaded up with film (thanks dad!!) cant wait to snap away in the sunlight.


wouldashouldacoulda by lalalalauren

soo, my dad was in paris and the first day he arrived we were in such a time crunch before he had some meeting but he insisted we stop into h&m so he could pick up a cheap scarf to keep him warm. i obviously hadn't been doing my research because that day happened to be the release day of the matthew williamson for h&m collection... and the store was shockingly empty. i've been a fan of  matthew williamson's ethnic and whimsical prints for quite a while now, but obviously wasn't aware he had a collection coming out i could actually (maybe) afford. so basically my point is that the collection was pretty awesome. the bad news? is that i had to leave without really giving anything more than a second glance to an electric green embroidered silk tunic and colorful chiffon maxi dress, and SOMEHOW forgot to go back immediately after my dad finished his meeting that was apparently more important than me scoring some amazing duds via williamson. thinking back i thought it was better that i didnt spend the money i didnt have in the first place... however, i was harshly reminded of this error while i was browsing ebay one late night and stumbled upon some listings for the williamson h&m collection that were listed, AND selling for more than quadruple what they were being sold for in stores!!! i quickly realized what i thought might be an sliiiight debt-inducing purchase could have easily turned into a profit making miracle. lesson learned. so heres the reminder of all that could have been:



also, today i pretty much read the blog by HANNELI MUSTAPARTA from 
start to finish, and am officially obsessed with her and all her 
gorgeousness. no but seriously, those cheek bones? 
love love love her and her closet and her brain.

camilla and marc by lalalalauren


so im obsessed with this australian design brother and sister duo camilla and marc. the golds, the pale rose, and that moonlight silver! i think this one below is the perfect summer dress paired with a cropped jean jacket. will start the quest for a less expensive lookalike for my cousin's wedding in august at lake george. 



p.s. speaking of australian beauties, where the hell is gemma ward these days? i loved that alien faced doll. come back to us, gemma! wow, thank you google, she'll be back this year after taking a year off to travel and hang with friends. ugh, jel.





 

musique by lalalalauren

i love this.


i like this too, i want to make one. seems easy.


the tunes in my head right now for the beginning of spring:
pete doherty - last of the english roses
iglu & harty - in this city
department of eagles - teenagers
the blow - true affection
blitzen trapper - furr
animal collective - summertime clothes
sufjan stevens- you are the blood (part 1 & part 2, see below)
m83 - graveyard girl
janis joplin - me and bobby mcbee
bon iver - for emma
chairlift - bruises
the delta spirit - trashcan
lykke li - im good im gone
trolle//siebenhaar - sweet dogs


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#1 by lalalalauren

so i spend so much of my time reading so many blogs and looking and so many pictures and its getting out of control so i thought maybe i should start my own something. even if no one ever visits this page it will give me some place to put my silly thoughts and pictures and i have a really bad memory so maybe writing my life down will help me remember things better.

i grew up in tucson arizona, lived in the same house my entire life. graduated high school and was set to follow the crowd and go to the university of arizona. a month before i graduated i woke up and realized what i would be doing to myself if i stayed in tucson for college. i then decided to peace out of tucson june 14th 2005 and moved to brooklyn, ny. after three and a half years in brooklyn, in the summer of 2008 i decided i needed a change of scene, so i decided to peace out of new york and delve into the parisian lifestyle and so i started to drink too much wine, smoke too many cigarettes, and speak not enough french. thats the story and im sticking to it. who knows what is next. my time is not over with paris but i need a slight need to return to obamaland and finish my degree, and los angeles just might be calling my name. well, it technically has been forever, since we have the same initials. on the other hand, the world is so big and full of options, i just need to discover the right one!
OPTIONS!!! SHOW YOURSELF TO ME!!!